(The following represents a continuation of John Kamenich’s interview with Garden Urthark.)
Next time I came to visit, Christmas decorations were up. Kasa and Joshua’s tiny house was just as cozy as ever. We sat together, quite comfortably, in their living room. Using Joshua as my interpreter, I started by saying to Kasa:
Interviewer: You are deaf and you can’t talk. That means you’re mute. Some people in the past talked about being dumb, deaf and dumb, but deaf people don’t like to hear that kind of expression any more. How do you see yourself: as mute or deaf or what? Tell me.
Kasa: I don’t know. I like to read in English. So I can remember things. Deaf people today go to college and use interpreters to help them learn and they’re not mute. They can write what they feel.
Interviewer: You and Joshua have called your art “Mute Art.” What do you think about the idea of mute art? That’s a different thing than being mute as a deaf person, right? Mute art means you don’t know how to talk about your art with other people. Is that right?
Kasa: Deaf people can think, talk: if they’re educated, they’re not mute. I’m mute, yes (I can talk a little). In Korea, my sisters and brothers didn’t tell me about what was happening. They didn’t keep me informed. I didn’t read. I came to the United States. I was behind in my English. Art? I don’t know. Painting? What? You have to read a lot to know how to express yourself. If you don’t read, you’re called mute like me.
Interviewer: What does mute art mean to you?
Kasa: It means I’m quiet.
Joshua: It means we don’t know how to talk about our art with other people. [To Kasa] You agree with that?
Kasa: My teacher, Professor Van Nistrooy, is very skilled as a painter, but still, he can’t explain his art well. He seemed mute himself. He could show something was wrong in the way perspective was set up or the composition. But to tell me a story about the art, he wasn’t professional. My husband tells a good story about a painting, but my two teachers, Mr. Van Nistrooy and Un Young, a Korean teacher who happens to have made it here in America, were not able to do that. Value, shadow, composition—that’s all.
Interviewer: Do you agree with your husband that your art is mute art?
Kasa: [To Joshua] “Is your art mute art?”
Joshua: Yes, I feel like I’m mute. I can’t express myself about my writing with anyone. I don’t know how to express myself. So when I see my own art, I feel mute. I don’t know how to talk about it.
Kasa: I think you’re much better at expressing yourself about your art than Mr. Van Nistrooy or Un Young. Do you agree with that?
Joshua: I haven’t met them, so I don’t know.
Kasa: You’re very imaginative; they aren’t.
Interviewer: [To Kasa] OK, well, tell me about your education. Did you get a good education in Korea?
Kasa: Nothing. Nothing. Because the teachers themselves used grammar with sign language. I was deaf, so I didn’t understand them. They knew nothing about deaf culture. They were the same as all hearing people. Deaf people have to use KSL [Korean Sign Language], but those teachers didn’t know it. So I had to guess what they were saying. I could understand one deaf teacher who used to tell great stories about himself because he used KSL.
There were two deaf teachers. One was married to a hearing woman who had gone to a highly prestigious university and was a pharmacist. Deaf people did not like this teacher because he was a snob. But he did know KSL and could entertain us with interesting stories. On Sundays, he was a missionary in our church, but in class he liked to tell off-color jokes. He was a hypocrite who refused to support my brother’s dream to become a teacher, even though my brother took private English lessons (tutoring) from him. He taught English and acted as an advisor to deaf students. The bastard used to pick on me in class. I was very shy and would go beet red when he compared me to my deaf brother and sister and told me I was stupid compared to them—in front of the whole class.
The other deaf teacher taught practical math. Deaf people liked him because he supported deaf people.
Joshua: Your school was very strict. In the morning you would parade around the grounds and exercise together like communists. Sometimes teachers would abuse students physically. Like you told me one time, you were talking in math class and you weren’t paying attention and the teacher beat you with a stick, a pole, what? Metal? A metal rod? A wooden rod, like about three feet long, that he held with both hands?
Kasa: He held it in both hands. I was very bored. The teacher was talking. Another girl was interpreting what he said into KSL. She loved math. I wasn’t interested. All the other girls were bored. Only one or two were paying attention.
Interviewer: You were talking a little with another kid and he caught you?
Kasa: He caught me and came over and stood in front of me and said, “Who are you talking to?” I said, “I don’t know.” The other girl said, “Don’t tell him—be quiet.” He said, “You’re not going to tell me?” He took the pole and he hit me over and over, in the head, and in the stomach.
Joshua: [Seeing Kasa is reluctant to go on] You’re not going to tell us? That has nothing to do with you! He did it, not you! Why are you ashamed to tell that to other people? Are you scared? What are you scared of? He abused you; you did not abuse him! You did nothing wrong. Why are you embarrassed?
Kasa: He hit me hard. I fell down. He continued to hit me. I was covering my head with my arms. He was hitting my arms and continually beating me. Crying and screaming, I hurt so much I didn’t know what was happening. I was 13 years old.
Joshua: So you immediately went home without telling the school, without telling the principal or anything. You went home—what happened? You just left school. Your mother said nothing. Your mother saw the bruises? Did you have any bruises? No one said anything about it? Next day did your mother go to school with you?
Kasa: Nothing. The principal was inaccessible. You couldn’t talk to the principal as you can here in the United States. Other times, one teacher ordered a girl to the front of the class and punched her three times in the stomach. Another teacher had a girl come to the front of the class and hold her hands out. He hit her twenty times on the top and bottom of her hands, 20 times with a wooden baton.
Interviewer: Wow, they were abusive there, weren’t they? That sounds absolutely terrible!
Kasa: We were innocent kids. The teacher who beat me was a young, handsome man. He was new at the school and didn’t know me. I felt like the teacher made a big mistake.
Interviewer: He sure did.
Kasa: That teacher was the most boring teacher in the school. He just concentrated on math and math only. He told no interesting stories about himself or anyone else. You just couldn’t pay attention to him.
Joshua: You were telling me once that if you even came late to class, the teachers would make you crumple up paper and wash windows.
Kasa: It was discipline to wash the windows with newspaper balled up, and wash the windows without water or rag. You had to clean the windows with your own breath. Water and rag would make it easy. We would clean the windows in the teachers’ offices. Sometimes the boys would slip us a rag that we would quickly use and then hide in our pocket and go back to the balled paper before any teacher could see us.
Another disciplinary measure the teachers used was to have us shine the wooden floors to the school’s halls. How did we do this? First we’d rub a candle on the floor to make it waxy, then we’d take a glass mug like for drinking beer and rub the wax into the wood with the bottom of it. After that, we would buff the floor shiny with a rag.
(To be continued . . . )
Garden Urthark is the author of Other World, an epic mystery in five parts available for a limited time as a free eBook from Smashwords at http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/51153.
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